Aches and pains

My best friend’s man,

Haunts my dreams.

I will surely go to hell, I will;

For this terrible atrocity

But how can something so wrong

Feel so damn right?

When he holds me…

It’s wrong, but it’s right.

When he smiles at me…

My world falls back in place.

I tread dangerous grounds

Surely, I fall.

But if I do,

I must fall alone.

I love them both…

My best friend and her man.

I hurt, everywhere.

This is so wrong,

It hurts me,

Like a parasite, it feeds on my being.

I’m leaving.

It breaks my heart, it does

To see something I want, need,

And to know that forever,

It’ll be out of my reach.

I can’t hurt her this way.

Another girl; and I might have fought

But she’s my best friend, my sister…

How does one start a war

With her sister over a man?

‘’sisters before misters’’

*hysteric giggles*

I just can’t!

I have to leave!!

*hysteric pants*

This is killing me,

I’m going crazy.

Literally.

Each time I see them,

I break softly, slowly;

I die a little more inside.

Enough.

I’m picking up what’s left of me,

Which really isn’t much…

And I’m leaving.

*Hysteric sobs*

It’s over.